PROZAC because sometimes I feel like a nut...

I recently had someone tell me that they didn't understand how people can suffer from depression.  I guess you don't understand it unless it affects you or someone close to you.  What I didn't realize about depression is that I didn't know I was depressed until someone pointed it out to me.  When you have had thoughts about suicide since you were 11 years old you don't realize that it's not normal and not everyone has those thoughts, you thinks it's normal.  I had a happy childhood and I didn't spend time alone in self-pity, I was active and people didn't know I was depressed from looking at me, I didn't share my thoughts of suicide with anyone it was just always in the back of mind.  The depression worsened as I got older and the thoughts became darker, my personality changed.  I was 26 when I mentioned to a close friend, who also has depression and anxiety, that I wish I could hold a gun, I didn't think I would use it, I just wanted to see what it felt like in my hands.  She immediately called her doctor and made an appointment for me.  I have been on medication ever since. I know some people think it is a shameful thing to have to take meds for depression , not me, if that one pill will keep the dark thoughts away, bring on the meds.

I will survive! 20 years and counting

September 11, 1990 was a Tuesday. I remember because it was the day I was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia (ALL).

Twenty years ago, WOW!

I rocked it as a bald chick!
Although it was fun to shock people with my bald head I was glad when my hair grew back.

Today I am grateful to be alive, to be a survivor of this disease that takes the lives of so many people, young and old.

This year I will raise funds for the Leukemia Lymphoma Society by participating in the

Light the Night Walk.

Please make a donation online at:

http://pages.lightthenight.org/dm/westside10/dwillboqyq

$1 $5 $10 any amount will help. Thanks!

Also any ideas you might have for my team name, right now it's Team Willborn (not very creative), please send some ideas my way. Thanks again!

Jason's Birthday

Jason's birthday was Wednesday, March 10th. We both had the day off work and went to see Avatar in 3D. I was pleasantly surprised at how good it was. Jason of course thought it was AWESOME! Plus he now has a pair of 3D glasses, bonus! For his birthday gift I had been saving for a Macbook Pro, I really wanted to surprise him but there was no way I could pick out a laptop computer with all the right specifications so I had to ask for his help. He was still really excited to unwrap it even though he already knew what it was. Then we went to Black Angus for a steak dinner, Jason's favorite.

My job

When I worked in customer service I hated my job but loved my co-workers. Now I love my job but I strongly dislike the people I work with. I started looking for a new job because I was so unhappy and didn't feel like my boss was on my side. Today that changed and I am again happy to be working where I work and have the job I have. (I still dislike most of my co-workers they are a bunch of two faced backstabbers). But my boss is on my side, he has let me know that I am an asset and not just a pain in the a**.

I guess it's about time...

...it's about time I started this blog. There are quite a few blogs I follow and I find them to be very interesting. I love being able to catch up with family and friends by following their blog updates. I don't know that I can be as intersting or as clever as some, but here I go my first post. Ta da!